Love. Being Alone.

Sometimes I wonder how and why do people fall in and out of love so easily.

After ending an almost three years relationship, I have remained single for the past three years. I'm not sure what is the real reason why but some told me that I'm too particular and demanding when it comes to choosing the 'right one'. My inner voice is telling me this "Of course you have to choose the right one! Once bitten, twice shy".

When did I lost the courage to fall in love again? I don't know.
When will I meet the 'right one'? I don't know.

I always felt that I am slightly better than average.
Stable job, earning enough to feed myself, no debts, no records, sociable, pleasant-looking, healthy, independent and practical.
But, I'm single.

Many a times when I walked down the streets, there are dozens of couples walking past me and some of them might not be as 'average' as me. This makes me wonder why am I still single. I'm aware that I can't weigh things in such a manner as it is not fair and right to compare this way. Also, I shouldn't use too much practicality to analyse something that we are supposed to feel with our hearts. Sometimes, I just can't help wondering.

Many people told me that as a female, I am too manly. My looks are deceiving, I'm petite, demure when I'm quiet. Once I speak, I'm blunt and fast.

Friends have commented that I'm a man in a woman's body. I'm independent and strong (mentally). Deep inside, I knew that I need to have this amour to protect myself. If I don't, who will? No one at the moment. Thus, as time passes, these masculine characteristics became embedded in me, unknowingly.

Perhaps, I'm too timid and, at the same time, too practical to fall in love once again.

First Entry

Writing a blog is a total random thing for me to do because I'm a lazy bum. After reading someone's blog ( a person who i adore), i was inspired to start writing this blog.

I do not know how long this blog will last but hopefully it can document my thoughts (both sinister and angelic ones) at that very moment.

Hi, I'm 25 this year. I have not figured out what i really want in life but at least now i'm contented with what i have. i have a job which i enjoy although it can really stress me out sometimes.

That's all i have to say for now:)